Sunday, 27 July 2014

Thoughts & A Catch Up

This month marks three years since J and I moved to Brighton. That's mad! That means it's been three years since I graduated, 2 years with Pixel in our lives and almost two years that I've been at my current job. Time is going so quickly! I know it's so easy to say that, but I really do feel like it's slipping away from me.

This is one of the reasons that I'm so thankful I started this blog; I can pick a day, a month, a year, and go and read about what I was up to or what I was making. It's awesome.
But, I've never really been that good at the whole sharing thing. I'm very private, and it takes a lot for me to open up to people. Despite my blog starting out as a lifestyle blog, I definitely veered it into primarily DIY and crafts. This is a good thing; it's my online scrapbook to share my craftiness, but I wish I could balance the crafts/lifestyle posts a little easier.
I want to be able to post photos of Pixel being daft, of an outfit that I like one day, of adventures I have. But I have this fear, (and I'm trying to overcome it) and I wonder if anyone else feels this too? I know for so many bloggers now over sharing is the norm, but do you ever stop and think "why am I telling hundreds of people about the day to day activities in my life?"

A lot of it for me is based on very personal experiences, but I really would like to open up just a little, and show a bit more of myself. The negative side of only posting DIY's and crafts is that I feel a lot of pressure to always be making things. In creating an online space for myself to document my life, I've actually ended up sharing a small snippet of it, and trust me, there are some days (& weeks!) where I can't even contemplate making something, sewing, upcycling, etc. Granted, it does take up most of my spare time, but there are so many other things going on that I leave out (like having my sister and her boyfriend to stay and spending hours on an arcade style ps4 game or spending my evenings binge watching American Horror Story!).

J and I have started planning our wedding, and this is huge. It's an event that I have genuinely never considered, so I feel completely overwhelmed, excited and a little bit nervous! Despite everything being very up in the air at the moment, I really want to be able to document the planning on here when I can, coz this is exactly the sort of occasion I want to be able to look back on and read again in years to come.
Most people I have spoken to have just assumed I'll be making my dress, which even though I am, suddenly felt like another pressure to be added, although I really am excited for the challenge. Then obviously as much as possible regarding the day will be DIY, upcycled, thrifted, the works... and I guess here's the thing: so much of my life is DIY and crafts, and if the two merge so well together in reality, then why am I struggling to merge them both on this blog?

So, here's to me opening up a little, and documenting the every day things as well as the DIY's. This weekend seems like a good place to start.
I've been sea swimming with J and made a pact to go as many evenings as possible after work, cried watching the BBC documentary 'Clothes To Die For' which Laura has reviewed better than I ever could HERE, sat in the garden and crossed my fingers that my tomato plants keep growing and don't get eaten, stayed in my pyjamas too long watching old Skins episodes on Netflix, started sewing a dress, worked on a few projects for Eight & Sixteen, created chaos in our living room by putting up our tent to check it in preparation for Green Man Festival, and after writing this, I'm going to sit and practice calligraphy for Eight & Sixteen.
And that's me.

2 comments:

  1. Lovely post, Skye :) I think that today's share-all culture is quite a strange one, especially for people who are normally quite private. I know what you mean about the joy of being able to use your blog as a sort of diary, documenting the best times of your life- but I think it's up to you how much you would like to share. I'm sure all of your readers would love to hear more about your daily life (especially if they're anywhere near as nosey as I am!) because your personality already shines through in your crafty posts. I, for one, would love to hear more about your plans and excitement about the wedding; but no pressure! xxx

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  2. I think that the line between what to share and what to keep private can be almost invisible sometimes and everyone is different. There are so many things that are reserved just for my personal notebook that I pretty much never let out of my sight and I think it's important to keep things back. When I'm writing a post I don't really think about anyone reading it, it's almost like it's just for me, which may seem incredibly selfish but I think if I wondered whether anyone would like what I'm writing about I wouldn't post anything ever again. xx

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